Listen - Beyonce

(Another song from the movie, Dreamgirls.)

LISTEN
TO THE SONG HERE IN MY HEART
A MELODY I START BUT CAN'T COMPLETE
LISTEN
TO THE SOUND FROM DEEP WITHIN
IT'S ONLY BEGINNING TO FIND RELEASE
OH, THE TIME HAS COME
FOR MY DREAMS TO BE HEARD
THEY WILL NOT BE PISHED ASIDE AND TURNED
INTO YOUR OWN
ALL 'CAUSE YOU WON'T
LISTEN
LISTEN
I AM ALONE AT A CROSSROADS
I/M NOT AT HOME IN MY OWN HOME
AND I'VE TRIED AND TRIED
TO SAY WHAT'S ON MY MIND
YOU SHOULD HAVE KNOWN
OH, NOW I AM DONE BELIEVING YOU
YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M FEELING
I'M MORE THAN WHAT YOU MADE OF ME
I FOLLOWED THE VOICE YOU GAVE TO ME
BUT NOW I'VE GOTTA FIND MY OWN
YOU SHOULD HAVE LISTENED
THERE IS SOMEONE HERE INSIDE
SOMEONE I THOUGHT HAD DIED SO LONG AGO
OH, I'M SCREAMING OUT
AND MY DREAMS WILL BE HEARD
THEY WILL NOT BE PUSHED ASIDE OR WORSE
BENT TO YOUR OWN
ALL 'CAUSE YOU WON'T
LISTEN
LISTEN
I AM ALONE AT A CROSSROADS
I'M NOT AT HOME IN MY OWN HOME
AND I'VE TRIED AND TRIED
TO SAY WHAT'S ON MY MIND
YOU SHOULD HAVE KNOWN
OH, NOW I'M DONE BELIEVING YOU
YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M FEELING
I'M MORE THAN WHAT YOU MADE OF ME
I FOLLOWED THE VOICE YOU GAVE TO ME
BUT NOW I'VE GOTTA FIND MY OWN
I DON'T KNOW WHERE I BELONG
BUT I'LL BE MOVING ON
IF YOU DON'T, IF YOU DON'T
LISTEN
TO THE SONG HERE IN MY HEART
A MELODY I START BUT I WILL COMPLETE
OH, NOW I'M DONE BELIEVING YOU
YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M FEELING
I'M MORE THAN WHAT YOU MADE OF ME
I FOLLOWED THE VOICE YOU THINK YOU GAVE TO ME
BUT NOW I'VE GOTTA FIND MY OWN
MY OWN

All By Myself

The one thing I must learn to do with immediate effect is to keep things to myself and no more sharing with others for the hope of garnering their support or understanding. The only people one can count on for unrelentless support is your own family, only these people give you unconditional support and full understanding. I will keep things to myself from now on and not harbouring the hope that I can rely on others for emotional support simply because no one can do that at all and it will always end up getting more frustrating and deeper misunderstanding. Whoever said share your thoughts or problems because it helps to alleviate the burden should rethink, it does not do that but rather it only puts you in a position where others will view you in their own opinion and not really interested to see from your view or put themselves in your shoes. So I must help myself from now on, to keep all my thoughts, problems and views deep within myself and not expose them. (My headache is so bad now)

And I Telling You I Am Not Going

I watched the movie "Dreamgirls" and there are 3 scenes that stick to my mind and gave me goosebumps. The confrontational scene where they broke into "It's All Over", the anger and hatred and "ganging-up", the awakening feel all rolled into one! That scene was immediately followed by Effie breaking into "And I Am Telling You I Am Not Going" really made all my hair stand up in unison! Her chest thumping and feet stomping gestures with all the hatred and unhelplessness and refusal...whoa! And finally, the scene where Effie sat on a chair and sang "I Am Changing" in a small cosy bar. That scene reminded me of one of my favourite chinese song by Shunza, "回家", where in her MTV, she too sat on a chair and sang this song to a small crowd of appreciative audience. Back to "Dreamgirls", I really loved Jennifer Hudson's "And I Telling You I Am Not Going". Darn, this is such a difficult song to sing! To share the lyrics with whoever is reading this:

AND I AM TELLING YOU I'M NOT GOING

YOU'RE THE BEST MAN I'LL EVER KNOW

THERE'S NO WAY I CAN EVER GO

NO NO, THERE'S NO WAY

I'M LIVING WITHOUT YOU

I DON'T WANT TO BE FREE

I'M STAYING, I'M STAYING

AND YOU, AND YOU, YOU'RE GONNA LOVE ME

YOU'RE GONNA LOVE ME

AND I M TELLING YOU I'M NOT GOING

EVEN THOUGH THE ROUGH TIMES ARE SHOWING

THERE'S JUST NO WAY, THERE'S NO WAY

WE'RE PART OF THE SAME PLACE

WE'RE PART OF THE SAME TIME

WE BOTH SHARE THE SAME BLOOD

WE BOTH HAVE THE SAME MIND

AND TIME AND TIME

WE'VE HAD SO MUCH TO SHARE

NO NO NO NO NO NO WAY

I'M NOT WAKING UP TOMORROW MORNING

AND FINDING THAT THERE'S NOBODY THERE

DARLING, THERE'S NO WAY

NO NO NO NO WAY

I'M LIVING WITHOUT YOU

I'M NOT LIVING WITH YOU

YOU SEE THERE'S JUST NO WAY

THERE'S NO WAY

PLEASE DON'T GO AWAY FROM ME

STAY WITH ME, STAY WITH ME

STAY, STAY AND HOLD ME

STAY, STAY AND HOLD ME

PLEASE STAY AND HOLD ME, MR MAN

TRY IT, MISTER, TRY IT,MISTER

I KNOW, I KNOW, I KNOW, YOU CAN

TEAR DOWN THE MOUNTAIN

YELL,SCREAM, AND SHOUT

YOU CAN SAY WHAT YOU WANT

I'M NOT WALKING OUT

STOP ALL THE RIVERS

PUSH, STRIKE, AND KILL

I'M NOT GONNA LEAVE YOU

THERE'S NO WAY I WILL

AND I AM TELLING YOU I'M NOT GOING

YOU'RE THE BEST MAN I'LL EVER KNOW

THERE'S NO WAY I COULD EVER EVER GO

NO NO THERE'S NO WAY

NO NO NO NO WAY

I'M LIVING WITHOUT YOU

I'M NOT LIVING WITHOUT YOU

NOT LIVING WITHOUT YOU

I DON'T WANT TO BE FREE

I'M STAYING, I'M STAYING

AND YOU, AND YOU, AND YOU

YOU'RE GONNA LOVE ME

YOU'RE GONNA LOVE ME

YES YOU ARE

YES YOU ARE

OHHH, LOVE ME

LOVE ME, LOVE ME, LOVE

YOU'RE GONNA LOVE ME!